"I've decided that perhaps I'm bulimic and just keep forgetting to purge."

     Long time no type. Its been awhile since I have updated. Lots goin on with work here because of the merger and with working lots of hours at Monicals. But now things are back to normal. Well as normal as can be for me. Its hard when ur busy to eat good and work out properly. And Monicals if its slow is death to my diet. OHHHHH Big news I gave up Pizza (my favorite food on the face of the planet) for Lent. And I DID IT!!! It was hard and that 1st time back to eating pizza was so amazing. I want some right now actually and its 9:30 in the morning. I could eat pizza anytime as long as its fresh. Re-heated pizza taste like barf, literally. LOL

    I have been doing great at maintaining my weight but I am so tryin to loose a couple of pounds before VEGAS!! this weekend. I have been starying between 139 and 136. I would love to see 135 by this weekend. Yesterday I did so good with not eating junk. Coffee is by my side whenever Im hungry cuz it fills me up quick. I still cant believe that back in November I was 160. I love that people are noticing the weight I have lost that keeps me motivated plus clothes that didnt fit well or at all before are fitting and I have to wear a belt alot now. Its the best feeling!!

     So wish me luck this week on not eating tons of junk. I have steamed broccoli & cauliflower for lunch and grilled chicken breast. Dinner is my demise. But I bought a pair of shorts a size smaller and I keep looking at em every time I get get the urge to indulge. LOL Take care and I hope to win big in Las Vegas for my one year wedding anniversary!!!

xoxo
Nikki

I never worry about diets. The only carrots that interest me are the number you get in a diamond. ~Mae West

        Do you know how frusterating it is to be .4 pounds away from ur goal weight??? AHHHHHHH I wanna eat everything today cuz I was so mad this morning. LOL I did however enjoy a peanut butter Girl Scout cookie this morning just to make myself feel a lil bit better. I jus had one and it was great but now I feel all guilty cuz that isnt what I should be eating. Owell whatcha guna do now. LOL Tonight no work so I will get some exercise in and hope to be in the 130's 2mrw. I have been eating great during the day and then just having whatever for supper. If I make burgers or spaggetti for my family then I eat it and dont worry too much bout it but for lunch its always lean ground beef or chicken or tuna. I have been doing a great job at maintaing my weight by doing this which is fine with me. If I loose 2 more pounds then im totally good with that. Weekends are kinda my downfall tho and the fact that my husband eats everything is site and in front of me doesnt help. LOL

     Now onto my most exciting news.... I bought a brand new car yesterday!! And my brand new I mean brand new. I feel so good and proud of myself. I never thought I would own a new car and now I do. It is however going to suck to have to make car payment since I havent had any for like a year but hey I can now fit my whole family plus extras in my ride. The pic of it is on my FB so go see!! Its so purty! I am going to order seat covers for it and make it all girly and pretty. I cant wait!

     Well I better get back to work so someday I can actually be caught up. LOL Ill let u know in a week or 2 if I finally hit that 139 mark. I dont even care if its 139.9 Ill take it just to see that 3. LOL

"I don't know who decided that skinny was more appealing than not skinny. It seems arbitrary." Gwyneth Paltrow

     So I am not a fan of Gwyneth but I did however like her quote, cuz so true wouldnt it be great it chubby was the hot factor. LOL This morning I was 141.2 so close to being in the 130's. I WILL next week be in there!! From 160 at then end of November to this feels amazing but I still feel like I got alot to go. Not so much loosing either but just getting in shape. I am so happy with my weight this morning cuz I totally broke down last night after grocery shopping for healthy food by going to McDonalds and having a happy meal. It was great comfort food tho. I dont regret it for a second. My parents dog who has been in our lives for almost 16 years was put to sleep yesterday and I was also just having a bad day in general. So after crying all day I found McDonalds fitting. Sometimes u just gotta let urself go for a min. Then dont look back just forward. I did work out for an hour tho after eating it cuz I felt a tad bit guilty not gunna lie.

Thats my Pumpkin girl or Monkey as I use to call her. I know she is just a dog but she is like a sister to me. Miss her already so much.

    I have been in the process of buying a new car so that puts so much stress on me plus I think I may be still possibly going to Indianapolis to Supercross this weekend and this week leading up to it has been hell. I think I am just guna go and have fun no matter what. I think if we leave tonight I might make Dom take me to the Zoo 2mrw. LOL I am worried about all my drinking and eating festivities if I go but hey Monday Ill just get back on track and be back at it and I need to blow off some steam and enjoy myself. I would like to thank Dom, Bert, Tiff, & Faith this week for listening to me vent and cry.

    So hopefully by this time next week I will have my new vehicle! They already ordered it for me. This be my first brand spankin new car! It is going to suuuuuuuck tho having a car payment again tho. But I am so proud to say I got approved all by myself. And Im going to miss the Cobalt but my family is bigger now and hopefully in the next year getting bigger so I needed more room.

    Well I thought of more to say of course while driving but now I cant remember. LOL Prayers goin out all over the world today! I hope everyone has a great weekend now I need to get back to work so I can get outta here early!!!

XOXOXO

Once on the lips forever on the hips!

......And Im back! Its been a lil over a week but Im here. Iv had alot goin on with Piffs bday and work and gettin ready for my bday!! I still dont have my treadmill but still looking. Moola has been tight with all the festivities and Dom not getting unemployment or having a job, BUT as of a couple days ago we are back up and running and my hubby has got a new great job!! I thank God for giving this to us. He had a job lined up for Spring but this is so much better for us! The whole unemployment thing was a bust and makes me wanna cry but in the end its ok it will all work out. It will just take a lil bit to get back on track. I have been working my butt off also. I like to do things and go places and spoil our girls so I need to work as much as possible to do this. Also here in the near future I am going to be purchasing a new vehicle because my kids are growing and fast and 3 of them do not fit well in the back of my cobalt. LOL

     So I have been dieting like crazy this last week and I am down to 145 today and hoping to be under 144 by Saturday. I think I can do it. I am so craving a chocolate chip cookie tho. Id kill for one. LOL I miss grease also. LOL I hope that I dont major screw up this weekend but its my bday so hey so be it. It is so hard being at Monicals and not eating all of that delciousness. Pizza is my favorite food ever so it is super hard. Coffee & water is my best friend right now helps me feel full.

     Well I better get back to work since Im a lil behind. Oopsy Have fun and Stay warm!!

“Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.”

     Well after a week of vacation and a week of snow, IM BACK! Those last two weeks were horrible diet wise. Jamaica was amazing!! It was the most beautiful place, nice weather, awesome people, amazing experiences I could have ever imagined. I literally walked around in a swimming suit the majority of the time I was there. There was ALWAYS food. Any time you wanted you could get it. Buffets galore and free room service and free booze. Ya that didnt help my weight much but the whole week I was there I didnt really gain much. Like 2 pounds at the most. BUT last week was another story. Being home alot snowed in with brownies and icecream and cookies. EEEKKKK Yummy tho. LOL This morning I weighed 149. Im not so excited about this.

     For Valentines Day and my bday which is the 26th I told Dom the only thing I wanted was a treadmill. So now I am on the hunt. I miss having one and Im going nuts not being able to run or walk outside. So hopefully here in the next 2 week I will be the proud owner of a new treadmill. Today I am back to no brownies for breakfast and M&M's before bed. LOL Hopefully I can loose the pounds again and soon. I got Vegas to look forward to and Cancun to get ready for! Also I wanna get started on getting ready for my next 5k.

See ya all later and hopefully Im still being good if not kick my booty! LOL

"Im leavin on a jet plane!!!!!"

     In about 19 hours Im outta here!!! YAY Vacation time is here and seriously what a perfect time. -5 degrees is a little crazy!! Im so stoked that 2mrw I get to wear flip flops and shorts and swim and not be cold! I cant even hardly concentrate on work. I dont know how Im guna get any sleep. I woke up around 5 this morning and made myself stay awake so I could hopefully get a lil shut eye before I have to be up at 3 and gettin ready to head out. I am super guna miss my love and my baby girl and my puppies. Makes me sad I wont get to see em for 8 days or talk to em whenever and however long I want. I could talk to em non-sop but Id have to sell my house to pay for the bill when I got back. LOL So one to two calls a day.

     So I said I would post my weight today and well its 144.7. Not 142 but hey Ill take it. Its cool. I havent been doin so great this week and I enjoyed Kobe at the food court last night. LOL And Im sure Ill gain like 100 pounds next week so no sweat. When I get back it just more incentive to stay eating decent and not overeating or snacking before bed. Thats the worst and thats always when I want to eat.

    Well I better get back to work cuz I plan on not being here a minute later today. Take Care! Ill miss you all!!

   Love and Kisses!

"The biggest seller is cookbooks and the second is diet books—how not to eat what you've just learned how to cook."

    It's a new week and thank goodness. Last week I kind of got off track. Not too bad tho I did fine food wise but exercising ya not so much happening there. So this week I vow to get at least 45 mins in a day of some sort of movement. LOL Also Monday is usually when I post my weight here but Im going to wait til Friday this week cuz Saturday at 4:30 a.m. starts my vacation and Im curious to see how that goes weight gaining for a week. All you can eat food and booze for a whole week and for free. Um ya I aint holding back.
     I am so excited for vacation. I am goin to miss my Dominic and Epiphany like crazy tho. I so wish Dom could go but it is going to be a blast with my best friend. Everyone always wants a great trip with a great friend and Im lucky enuf to get to go on one. I bought a new swimming suit and Im so excited about wearing it. That never happens. LOL
     This weekend I made turkey chili. It was so good! I highly recommend it and its much healthier than beef chili. Also turkey bacon is yummy and a great alternative to regular bacon just a like FYI for you all. Another I recommend to everyone is drink a full glass of water before you eat your main meal or whenever you feel hungry. I know diets and people always say to do it but it seriously helps! 
     Well back to work for now to get work done so I am all caught up on Friday. Ill post my weight and my send offs then too. Have a stellar week all!